I want a new tele :( some one help me out ;)

jerdepoyster:

nice.

So excited to finally go on a short tour. Excited to play in front of new people, excited to spend a full week with my best friends, and excited get a little taste of my dream.

I need to post more :/

Here is the link. Thanks so much for listening. We really are not trying to spam random bands lol. we just want some help haha. We know its still alittle generic but we put a ton of work behind it.

http://www.facebook.com/standaloneAL?sk=app_2405167945 

Today as I was walking through the parking lot of U.A.H. I saw a bumper sticker that said “autism speaks”,and the thought popped into my head ” but autistic kids don’t” .  While this made me laugh a little,it made me think about something. While most of will slap the bumper sticker on our car, do our annual walk for autism event, or even donate money towards research, how many actually help autistic children.  We say we care about the issue, but what are we really doing to help the problem. The problem isn’t that there are kids who have autism, the problem is that we fail to dedicate real time to the problem. This goes for anything though. It doesn’t matter what the problem is whether it be a mass number of homeless and starving people, corrupt corporations leasing children to make the clothes we wear, or a failing government, if we dont take actions into our own hands do we really care about the issue? When I can I work at the ymca to take care of the children( many impoverished) who attend after school day car there and in the summer, the camp. And honestly is one of the hardest jobs ive ever done, but there is one little boy there who’s name is nicholas. Nicholas is  7 year old boy with autism. If he weren’t tall his facial feature would make him seem like he was a toddler. Nicholas Makes the entire Job worth doing. Most days he lives in his own world, completely outside of everything that surrounds him, And I often join him in his adventures. And sadly most kids abandon him because he is so shy around them.But the reason I care about nicholas so much is because I feel like no one else does. Yes the realize he has autism and consider him special needs. But he is so much more than that. All that he needs is a friend with big heart and alot of patience. Honestly sweetest kid I know. 

The reason for writing this isn’t all about nicholas though. I wrote this to challenge you. If you have something that you say you believe in, then put your money where your mouth is. go help with the problem Directly. Only You can change this world, not your money.

Kid is so funny

I want to make music every day the rest of my life. dunno its just the way it makes me feel. sounds cheesy but its true. cant get away from it

solitude. For some its horrifying, but for me it sounds like complete bliss. I don’t know what it is about it, but its just comforting.  Just the ability to be alone and think what I want is pretty powerful stuff. I do complain about having no one to hang out with a LOT. but the truth is sometimes I would rather just be left alone.

First day back for the spring semester and wow do I already feel overwhelmed. Im trying to set some goals for my self this semester (realistic ones) in the chance that I might do better and maybe even be happy. Happiness has been a huge  problem for me lately. Not blaming anyone, I know im the only one who can make myself happy. I just wonder  if all this stress is worth it.  Why try to live a normal college experience if I know that a “normal” college experience isn’t what I want at all. All I want is a degree and to move on with my life.

I’ve been thinking about moving lately. Mainly Seattle. Ya know just start over. New friends, living environment, climate, social scene, and school. The whole deal. Not that there is anything wrong with the real friends that I have, they are amazing. The biggest problem are the semi friends. their not fake or even rude( well most of them) its just that they arn’t real friends. its not their fault, it just wasn’t in the cards for them, or me. Which makes me think I need to do more for myself, which sounds incredibly selfish.  But you know if I moved away it would be one thing I’ve done totally for myself. There may be alot of thing thats im interested in, within seattle. But their will be no one I know . which will hopefully push me outside my security box. forced to meet new people and the biggest part enjoy things because I want to do them. btw everything is iced over at uah. including the sidewalks they will be open no matter what.

I never want to work for the weekend. This isn’t what I want the rest of my life to be like.

since when is happiness key? Always.  I’m learning to do things for myself and to stop worrying about others.  They arn’t the ones living my life

Btw here are couple a pic.’s I took of my beautiful girlfriend. Tell me what you think

I’ve started this blog to vent/ explain to others what my college experience/growing up has and will be. I know mine is more than likely very different from the next  guys, and yes this will probably sound very whiny this is purely from my point of view. A sophomore in college, living in a “post college” town. Trying to figure out what I will do with the rest of my life, how I will finish everything that needs to be done, and still find time to stay sane. For me college has been a more than stressful endeavor. Each day bringing on more stress and uncertainty about the not so distant future. Will there be a job for me when I get out of college,  will I actually be happier when I graduate, and I will enjoy my job enough to not want to kill my self. I Ask my self these questions quite frequently.

What makes for a “happy” life? Is it monetary security via a very stressful office job that is mind-numbingly boring, that I will probably end up hating one, or if I’m lucky, two years into it. Although this does have the upside of having a nice house, sweet car, and the ability to provide for others and my self. On the other hand I could take the path less traveled by, as so many have called it. Doing what I enjoy, and am passionate about. Why it may be what I want to do, it probably isn’t what i need to do. Yea, i’ll be doing what I love, but I would receive a less self-sustainable income. Why does it have to be all about money?

Some have it lucky. Doing what they love and at the same time being paid well enough to easily  provide for them self’s and others. I guess they were just lucky. In saying that there is no reason to complain about the cards i’ve been delt. The best thing to do is to pick up my feet (way over used btw) and deal with, in whichever path I choose. Now I just have to pick one, and this leads me back to square one.

 Make it your goal to make someone else’s day a little brighter. (I should do this more)